Sealing memories of this year with kisses

I have no idea why everybody is so excited to countdown to the new year, it's true that we should expect better things in the years ahead but I'm someone who always looks back. I look back, I miss, and sometimes I resent. Entering a new year spells closure, which means I can no longer make things right in the wrong I've done. No choice but to leave them as memories.

However, I obviously can't stop time so I'm going to try listing down significant events that happened in 2011 :)


This year, my family crumbled. We fell really really hard, but we're on our way back up. This is the saddest and hardest part of 2011. Despite that, we grew much closer and I'm so proud of each and everyone of them. As usual, I fought with my sister countless of times but I'm still thankful for her, the closest person I have in my life. I can't help feeling like the distance between us is growing but I'm not afraid cuz I know our bond always pulls us back together no matter what.

In 2011, my relationship with Boen has strengthened alot. I guess it's the best year the both of us had together, it's not because we experienced more Ups than Downs, but because I feel that we have actually came to terms with the fact that our relationship is one of the most important things to us. Even when we're going through big fights, we try to place the situations above our emotions and the B word never come to our minds. It's the year I actually felt that we really grew, together, stopped reasoning why we're so stubborn but actually accepted the fact that we're born this way, started to treat one another like family. I used to feel guilty (I think the same goes for him) when I think that Boen is more important to me than friends are. But I don't see why I should be now, he has never left me in the good nor bad times, and he has seen my good and bad sides. All of them. We have been through the most together, he has definitely been the most selfless to me. Maybe this is also evidence of me growing.

I met QTpies! This also meant that school is so much better for me. I never really liked school but the 6 months in TEP with them was different. I was happy in school everyday. It's not just a school affair though, they're people I can sit at starbucks with for hours and still not run out of conversations. I'm willing to do alot to make sure nothing changes between us.

(This one very genuine) Felt unhappy with almost all my close friends at different points of time. Some I voiced out, others I kept it to myself.

Did not lose any friends close to my heart. ^^

Job-hopped quite abit. Currently jobless (haha).

My perspective of many things changed.

Became fatter, lost my clear complexion and it became a constant to possess a pimply forehead.

The things I always talked about doing before I turned 18 are mostly accomplished. Except for taking my license which I'll be getting next year. I hate it man, I've been avoiding it cuz I hate the stress that I'm going to be feeling. Arghhhh! :(

Year of break-ups.

My memory of this year has been clouded with happy ones, so I'll say 2011 has been good. Yay.

Happy New Year everyone!!! :-*
(Craving for some lipton tea really baaaaaad.)

International love

David's 21st! Dinner @ Kiseki was on him :)

Happy (super belated) birthday!!! *buddy fist punch*

One of my favourite, some awesome shitxzxzxz

Yesterday, something happened and it made me dance for joy ^^

Suckers for love

Gave this place a little makeover! :)

I was so bored with this space I didn't even feel like posting anything at all.

Cityplaza with Taffy, Agatha and Zhiting last Friday...

The place is actually full of treasures! But only for those who are willing to make the effort to shop meticulously and in detail hahaha. You have to search the racks thoroughly, walk seemingly in circles through rows of shops that look the same. But yeah, I thought that my buys were worth my effort :)

:)

You girls are amazing to hang out with. But I have to say, what y'all mean to me goes beyond the fun companions you are. Even though I feel like everyone of you changed (who doesn't?), deep down I find myself hoping that this friendship will never sway. I don't know how much I mean to each one of you in the new situations we find ourselves in now, but I just wish that all 4 of us will always know our places in one anothers' hearts. With or without reminders.

Xoxo.

M u d d y

Not a great fan of soft toys but Muddy is just too adorable! Yep he was already given a name on the tag that he arrived in :)

Christmas was filled with love!

Just a passing cloud

Update: Dyed my hair reddish brown (turned out abit purplish), went down to the dental clinic to do my fillings and am going back again next month for polishing, sister is doing pedicure for me now, i think im jobless now haha, supposed to have T.G.I.F and Coldstone for dinner with Baby to celebrate our mthsary but he's tired so I think we're just heading to heartland areas. :)

And... HOLIDAYSSSS!!!

You set your heart on me

Sick since last Saturday. It's uncommon for me to fall sick and even more rare for it to last.

I can't call it flu cuz it's something more, can't call it fever cuz it's not there yet.

My head hurts, nose is runny (or blocked), stomach hurts, throat feels super dry/painful and my lips keep cracking. It helps when I apply lipbalm but not for more than 30 minutes.
Everyday I believe it will all go away very soon but it took me so many days to finally feel better.

Took a nap at Baby's yesterday and it was horrible. Or should I say, the worst nap I've ever taken?

I had the urge to vomit so badly and I couldn't breathe properly. You know the feeling you get when you can't breathe with your nose cuz it's blocked and you rely on your mouth to do it, but your throat seems to be blocked by phlegm...? Yeah I had that and my body was aching. I can't remember but I think I had nightmares to top it off.

You'll ask why didn't I just get out of sleep, I can't answer that question I guess I was just too tired. Didn't even have the strength to wake him up for help :(

Fanciful

Rebel on one of the Wednesdays in November in my favorite dress :)

Like falling stars

#randomphotos

Town then Demsey for Ah pui & Jamie's post-solemization party (Oh yes will blog about their ROM party soon!!! Sweeeeet!)

Back for town for Already Famous.

A shot with all our photos on his wall, there are holes cuz some of them came off, the tape wasn't sticky enough :( But ytd we stuck everything back up again!

Waiting for them to rokok zzzzzzz, went PlayNation at Princep street.

Freaking ex yknow, each of us paid over $30 for 4 hours? We'll only have to pay $15 at Pitstop?! Not worth!

Quite annoyed with their "policy", they said it's not their usual practice to remind us that our time is up so they'll just assume that we wanna extend... But at the start we told them we only wanted an hour of extension, not two. So obviously they should at least ask for our permission before they key it into our bill right. Aiya just damn annoyed with the way their inflexibility and it feels like they just wanna cheat our money.

Okay, so what have I been busy with?

Tests, work, tests!

I'm usually not home on weekends so I always try to study on weekdays after school. One day in a week, I'll work. But it's never enough! I always regret not working more whenever I get my pay :( I use my pay for my shopping expenses (yup my mum doesn't pay for those) I'll only take extra $$ if I'm really struggling with my allowance lasting me through the week.

And lately, even though I've been taking more money from my parents, I still feel damn broke. What's happeninggggggg!

Me and my boyfriend, we are always holding on to the belief that everything will change (for the better) soon. We're always making great plans for the future, when we'll finally have more time for each other, when we have the ability to spend freely, and when we're grown ups and can really, really make decisions. Yes the thought of these excites me, but deep down I know I wouldn't want us any other way. If we're made of money, we wouldn't be how we're like now. It's a different kind of feeling, a different kind of closeness to have no money and to share everything you have. Something not everybody understands. I'll say that we're happier than most couples who doesn't lack anything on the material side. That's about money. And for freedom, it's a different kind of carefree when we're young, even though we can't make decisions 100%. It's like zero to hero. And I rather grow with him from that, than hero to hero. If we have everything we want, we can't hope. We can't have dreams about a future that seems to be a whole new different world. And I love to have dreams, I love to talk about them. But on the other hand, he loves it just as much but he doesn't like to talk about them publicly, that is why whenever I tweet about such things he'll reply me via text/phone -_- which also reminds me, I should stop before I share too much here.

I think the whole chunk will come across as something retarded to y'all ):

Sometimes I find it difficult to express how I truly feel sigh~~